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Sometimes I focus so much on things I’m passionate about that I neglect the passion in another person.

The obstacle of well-meaning secrets

Oh, I just can’t stand secrets! Sometimes I feel forced into complying with a time-limited secret, in order to help some of my closests. Most often, these secrets are well-intended, hence the time-limit. One example could be keeping a secret about a person for a few days, as a means to surprise this person at a later time. Take a surprise party - the most obvious example of a well-meant secret. I wouldn’t eliminate surprise parties completely (even if I actually had the chance), but just let surprise parties have the exclusive right for secrets with a good intention, because this is the only time that a secret can be useful.
And as for any other kind of secret:

Why do we always have to harm others to feel good about ourselves?

This might be booring!

I recently started on my second year of the economic education in which I’m enrolled. We were presented to several new subjects, including Organisation and International Economics.

Each subject has one or two books attached, and a few days ago I started reading in them. Generally every book starts out with a prehistoric outline of each subject. One thing that stroke me was how accumulating these books are. Every book describes how a guy came up with this breakthrough of a publication a hundred years ago, inventing and accounting for new theories. The books continue deliberately about how another guy then revised the other guy’s idea or theory and another guy again revised the first alteration and so on! It works this way several years ahead, but then suddenly stops at one point. (more…)

The disappointment of enforced exclusion
Sometimes intangible things decide wether or not a certain person has the right to stay within a group. It could be age, sex, culture-related norms or even more superficial matters such as a persons appearence. I kind of had this subject close to me this weekend, and I felt for both sides; the side that ‘had’ to exclude and the side that got excluded. What exactly happened is not of importance. The thing that got to me though, was how strong these feelings were at the time of the incident. Such an elaborate portion of guilt and disappointment. Guilt of being on the wrong side of this particular exclusion, and disappointment in yourself for being there and most importantly the disappointment the person on the other side must have felt. That is disappointment in the others for sticking to a prescribed behaviour. Also, I imagine, a feeling of emptiness must be inevitable. It should be noted that sometimes the people or the person on the wrong side of an incident like this are not always to blame. It is sometimes unavoidable to feel guilty in spite of not having done anything wrong. The problem though is what defines “anything”.